fate vs destiny
my apologies for not blogging lately. i've been in la la land for the last week. its 5am on a thursday morning, can't sleep...wishing I was somewhere else..
ok..so, i've officially met the man of my dreams. seriously. no foo foo "i wish i could be with someone so i'll settle for him" kind of stuff, this is straight up everything i need from a man to share my life with. I really need to introduce him so I can stop referring to "him" in my blogs. His name is Gareth.
Fate #1: This whole relationship began about 7 years ago, when we first met without knowing it was him. damn, i said "him," however it was a valid place to say "him" so its ok :D I played Quake against him every wednesday night. We met on IRC in a chatroom 7 years later by my friend Amber messaging me and saying..."dude you totally need to talk to this guy he is so your type!" I laughed it off and apparently he got the same message from her, so we started to talk. We eventually ended up webcamming eachother, and I immediately felt something different about the situation. The moment he said his name was Gareth, I knew I'd fall for this guy. Every night since then, we ended up talking on the phone for at least 8 hours a day, sometimes 12-14 hours.
Fate #2: Gareth lives in Victoria, BC Canada, of which is my ABSOLUTE favorite place I've ever been. I told my mom 8 years ago when I first was there, "that place is my heaven," and when he said that is where he lived, I about died!
Fate #3: hmm, about 18 years ago, a psychic told me that the name, "Barry," would be of great importance in my life. I've only known 2 Barry's in my life since, one is a close family friend, the other someone I went to school with. Amber talks on IRC to someone named Barry, which ended up being one of Gareth's best friends, which is how Amber met up with Gareth in the first place, sees Gareth on cam, messages me, and thats how it begins.
When you talk with someone on IRC, its so hard to explain to someone who has never done it how much you learn about someone. I fell in love with Gareth after only a few days of talking with him, and the feeling was mutual on his end. We text messaged eachother daily from work, emailed nonstop like crazy, and I found myself taking mad pictures every single day, just because I wanted to share what my eyes see everyday. I came to realize, I want to share my entire life with Gareth. Everynight, we'd fall asleep with our phones laying under our ear, so we could hear eachother sleep, I'd wake up just to see him on cam laying there, wishing I could be laying next to him. I had a crappy webcam, so one night I went and bought a really nice one. so my surprise, it had a built in microphone and was SO much clearer. since it had a microphone built in, we stopped using the phones and just voice chatted with the cams.
After only talking to Gareth for a week, I knew I had to meet him. We worked out a plan for me to visit Victoria, however it was over 3 weeks away due to my work schedule. With my plane tickets purchased, I never wanted 3 weeks to come any sooner. I was so anxious to meet this person that I've been so intrigued by. I knew by the pictures he sent to me, I'd totally be into him, however, the way he looked didn't matter to me, I loved Gareth as a person.
two days until my trip, gareth calls my parents. this totally blew me away, for him to care enough and be genuinely concerned about how my parents felt about me flying to canada to spend a weekend with someone I've never met, completely impressed me, and my parents as well.
the day before I am due to leave, I can't even function. i'm so excited/nervous my stomach is in knots and i can't concentrate on anything. so this is an intro to the rest of my blog i'm sure. Gareth is going to take up alot of my further thoughts, I'll save my trip for the next blog ;)
ok..so, i've officially met the man of my dreams. seriously. no foo foo "i wish i could be with someone so i'll settle for him" kind of stuff, this is straight up everything i need from a man to share my life with. I really need to introduce him so I can stop referring to "him" in my blogs. His name is Gareth.
Fate #1: This whole relationship began about 7 years ago, when we first met without knowing it was him. damn, i said "him," however it was a valid place to say "him" so its ok :D I played Quake against him every wednesday night. We met on IRC in a chatroom 7 years later by my friend Amber messaging me and saying..."dude you totally need to talk to this guy he is so your type!" I laughed it off and apparently he got the same message from her, so we started to talk. We eventually ended up webcamming eachother, and I immediately felt something different about the situation. The moment he said his name was Gareth, I knew I'd fall for this guy. Every night since then, we ended up talking on the phone for at least 8 hours a day, sometimes 12-14 hours.
Fate #2: Gareth lives in Victoria, BC Canada, of which is my ABSOLUTE favorite place I've ever been. I told my mom 8 years ago when I first was there, "that place is my heaven," and when he said that is where he lived, I about died!
Fate #3: hmm, about 18 years ago, a psychic told me that the name, "Barry," would be of great importance in my life. I've only known 2 Barry's in my life since, one is a close family friend, the other someone I went to school with. Amber talks on IRC to someone named Barry, which ended up being one of Gareth's best friends, which is how Amber met up with Gareth in the first place, sees Gareth on cam, messages me, and thats how it begins.
When you talk with someone on IRC, its so hard to explain to someone who has never done it how much you learn about someone. I fell in love with Gareth after only a few days of talking with him, and the feeling was mutual on his end. We text messaged eachother daily from work, emailed nonstop like crazy, and I found myself taking mad pictures every single day, just because I wanted to share what my eyes see everyday. I came to realize, I want to share my entire life with Gareth. Everynight, we'd fall asleep with our phones laying under our ear, so we could hear eachother sleep, I'd wake up just to see him on cam laying there, wishing I could be laying next to him. I had a crappy webcam, so one night I went and bought a really nice one. so my surprise, it had a built in microphone and was SO much clearer. since it had a microphone built in, we stopped using the phones and just voice chatted with the cams.
After only talking to Gareth for a week, I knew I had to meet him. We worked out a plan for me to visit Victoria, however it was over 3 weeks away due to my work schedule. With my plane tickets purchased, I never wanted 3 weeks to come any sooner. I was so anxious to meet this person that I've been so intrigued by. I knew by the pictures he sent to me, I'd totally be into him, however, the way he looked didn't matter to me, I loved Gareth as a person.
two days until my trip, gareth calls my parents. this totally blew me away, for him to care enough and be genuinely concerned about how my parents felt about me flying to canada to spend a weekend with someone I've never met, completely impressed me, and my parents as well.
the day before I am due to leave, I can't even function. i'm so excited/nervous my stomach is in knots and i can't concentrate on anything. so this is an intro to the rest of my blog i'm sure. Gareth is going to take up alot of my further thoughts, I'll save my trip for the next blog ;)
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home