welcome to the jungle

i'm going through some embarrassing days. i'm not used to feeling weakness, i've always been everybody else's rock, and now i'm the one at the bottom. i'm struggling admitting to myself that its okay to feel this, but its something i'm not used to. i've always been able to deal with whatever life hands me, and about 10 other peoples' burdens as well. also, i've pushed aside some symptoms that i should have addressed about a year ago. i'm finally taking some time out for me, needing to miss some work to make that happen (which I can't afford to do), and getting some help.