crazy

ok, time to come to terms with reality. i've taken some time off work because i'm having alot of difficulties dealing with "life" right now. i crashed really hard recently, and was told i shouldn't be working right now. i've been diagnosed as being Type I Bi-Polar. it was extremely difficult for me to hear that. i'm not quite sure why, there's always some type of stigma with mental illness issues, and i didn't want to be classified as a stigma. this month has been one of the hardest yet in my life. i'm only getting 1/2 pay from work while i'm off, my grandfather is dying, i had an abnormal papsmear, being away from gareth, and trying to patch a broken relationship with my ex and making a friendship. all of that going on while starting on a new "crazy pill" that has set me into an emotional frenzy, AND started my period out of nowhere! ugh, life is tough. i hate being an adult.