foggy

the last week, my mind has been a complete fog. i cannot recall what i did 5 minutes earlier, i wander in my thoughts randomly and lose all concentration on what i'm doing. i've done absolutely nothing in my house. when i'm driving, i don't remember if that stoplight was red or green that i just went through. i had to pull over last night on my way home and breath. anxiety is taking over my system, and i can't control it. medication makes me so groggy i cannot function with it. its a lose/lose situation right now. i sleep nonstop, and i have to shower before i go to bed, because i wake up 5 minutes before i have to leave for work, thank god for mikey having to pee every morning, otherwise i'd never get up, and probably lose my job. i cry at the drop of a hat, fall asleep sitting up in a chair, and slack off on my responsibilities. a daily phone call from gareth is the only thing holding me together. i know my nutrition is okay, i had bloodwork done to check that. i'm assuming this is some serious depression that i can't pull out of.